I can't sleep :( don't even read this

So... it's not really all that late, pretty sure Landon's gonna be up for 2 more hours watching tv so I'll prolly join him in a bit but I'm just not as young and regenerative as I used to be and this whole insomnia thing isn't really working out anymore. I'm just too excited, I can just tell when I'm gonna have a sleepless night cuz I feel... tingly haha um sparkly? I don't know, I can't explain it past that-but my mind is not shutting down and everything's going like a million miles an hour-that's pretty fast. I'm nervous about Bible college but mostly suuuuper excited. Nervous about like the courses I picked, what if they're not the ones that I really need to take-what if I picked out not-so-great teachers. And I mean... this last year at TRU was prolly one of the worst years of my life haha I'm nervous about being in school but away from my parents and everything familiar... I'm gonna be on my own. I know it's going to be good though, God's gonna stretch me and mould me and break me and put me back together-the way He wants and it's gonna be fantastic. Just nervous. I know what you mean, Amber, it's coming up so fast and I'm not prepared at all-so ya I don't think about it either. Well except for tonight apparently. Among other things.
So ya my family's back and I'm excited about that, it's good to have this huge empty house filled again, even if only for a few days. I wanna go to Prince George so bad... And Vancouver. I just miss my old life. This Kamloops life is wonderful at many times but I miss familiarity! The people I grew up with who know me-inside and out-who have danced with me when I was overjoyed and who have held and prayed with me when I was too broken to even talk. Ok I was talking to an old camp friend about being lonely in my house and he was like go to Prince George, be spontaneous, otherwise you'll just sit in your house depressed. And I want to, but I'm too safe all the time. I miss having the friends that make me come and have crazy adventures with them. Don't even give me a choice, just take me along. Like the time we ran away from camp (ok so we got permission) for a night and ate chinese food and dragged me through a water park with all my clothes on and Ben gave me his extra pair of worker pants to wear cuz I was cold and when I changed out of my wet pants Bryce stole them and whipped off his pants in the middle of the gas station and put mine on-veeeery much too small for him, and then we went and climbed a huuuge sand mountain and carved things into it and drove back listening to Aqua very loudly with the windows down in very dirty clothes. But now... I can't even justify driving to Dairy Queen when it's dark to buy a blizzard. I mean I'm sure Bible college is going to cure me of that but I don't want this summer to be forgettable-which it kind of is. All I can remember, aside from the occasional bbq or gathering of friends, is putting my hand in toilets and cleaning that bathtub (one of the many that doesn't drain) that someone peed in and then put towels in-that's my favourite. So hopefully Walmart calls back soon so I can start planning a trip...
Oooh I'm starting to get tired again, but I don't know if I'm quite there yet. Oh well my battery's dying anyway so I'll just go make some food (haha had a blizzard for dinner tonight...) and see what show Landon's watching.